Kelty ^.^

12 March 2009

After my brother pass away because of accident. In deep my heart, I always miss him but I no show out. I pretend normal. I don’t know when I start fear & sensitive to word “die” and all about funeral & pass away. I accept my brother pass away but maybe I hide too long my felt…Last week and this week I keep dream my brother as long no dream him since last 2 month. Plus I receive an email that let me think back sad stuff…haiz..Anything can take as funny matter but not dead matter…Please DONT….

And today had thunder rain for few minute..If last time, I no fear of dead & thunder..but don’t know why that moment I very scare…haha..scare of dead & thunder…I scare dead & thunder maybe I promise myself must live longer than my parents. I don’t want they sad like they lost of my brother…It like disaster!! I believe everything happen for reasons. But theory is theory..sometime hard to apply…

I should concentrate on my final project….but I keep delay & give a lot excuse to myself. I try ‘fight” with myself. Lucky there a group of my friends indirectly help me in the “fight”..THankQ all…Finally…my strong & rasional win..yeah ^^…but my hardworking side win half..haha..Conclusion, it really hard to “fight” with myself..but try my best..Try out of my fear…I think I should join Fear Factor….haha…Oh no..time run very fast liao…I think it enough!! enough!! bye my weak & mad…