Kelty ^.^

* My tear fall down when I read her blog…..

2day was 2^nd day and 2^nd  times I run away to face them…I remember last year…I run away from them too…I buat bodoh..like nothing happen…They aso like that…I believe was becoz we all appreciate our friendship….Last time my thought is like that:

If she/he was my close frenz…especially group with me…no help me when I need help…I will felt stress and start think….what mean of group??what mean of close frenz??

I thought close frenz will accept each other habit…Try to help each other if can….

Pass few days I think a lot,sad,stress..when they leave me last minutes…when all hav group…they no tell me early…(ya mayb they duno how to talk with me)…Last year,other frenz ask me not to group with them again to prevent any trouble happen that will break our friendship….

Ya..last year I was think like that…but later I scare they unhappy & thought me no frenz with them….Beside that, I also thought after half year no meet…will make them change their cincai habit(They act to do work last minutes…No so care..That why I act so serious because I care my work & I wan finish it earlier)…& understand why I act that way when doing stuff in group…So I believe them 4give me ady & accept me be their group member…

Recently…there happen a lot thing that I cant expected…cant control…I mengaku I dulu memang very bad gal…always stress for nothing…think negative…no very think what people felt…but after my loved people pass away suddenly without say anything…I more think a lot & realize I love family…I love friends…Other else are nothing valuable 4 me…Family& friends are valuable 4 me! I so peace& happy when I read her blog after elly tell me…I happy becoz eventually she voice out her felt…hey frenz if no voice out…how to noe what I done….even I can guess…but if frenz no say…I will keeping thinking….I realize I ady wrong…make them stress work with me…Is my problem too…They no group with me because our work way no same..they dun wan study stuff influence our friendship..So sorry… again…4give me my frenz ….

Actually in my heart..they still are my frenz…but I juz cant tahan see them like ignore me…(mayb I jealous see them so close) & no respon or no try to understand what happen between us….That why i run away from them….i scare been hurt by them becoz they are my close frenz since 1^st year..I dun wan our friendship end…forgive me my frenz…I no hate them….now I ady no sad abou it…i dun wan care past stuff…Important 4 me nw is family&frenz…so sorry..Hope our friendship will 4ever…