Kelty ^.^

Scare…pass few week..busy work part time..no time think scare..but in my mind actually very scare….scare as I sleep during the operation..then I cant wake up..huhu..why I thought like that?? Mayb recently my 1^st sister got dream twice my brother who ady at another world…He request family photo & money…hehe….Me aso got dream him…He ask me take curry rice(nasi lemak) 4 him….I felt worry he still stay this world becoz he lonely…wan ppl follow him “go”… Haiz..haha I duno why had that thinking…“my brother wan me follow him “go”…”)..mayb I tired saw my love ppl one by one leave me..

I felt this world no safe…so scaring duno tmrw will happen wat…:(

This “worry” felt become ok when had gathering with secondary frenz on 21 dec..very happy & felt tht “hope to fight my evil/negative think”…meet so long no meet old frenz..chean hui…so nice (siofui,kim,tong,tze&mimi)…they juz so gd & nice..make me gd….far away (chuew wen) aso encourage me…my ex-roomate,kuan..my roommate,ai choo…kajai frenz(ling,Kelly,ying,coon mei,elly)…Fo guang frenz (mei fong,shufen,xiao wei & other) aso…coursemate(susu,rye,..other)….online frenz..(jeff)..my family…all together ask me dun give up myself!! 23dec..midnite..i hungry..& cant sleep..mayb nervous..mayb becoz..sleep at my 2nd sister hse..cant biasa her bed…juz sleep 2hour..

Be4 enter operation room…I so bored waiting…sleepy(becoz no enough sleep..)..pain(when Dr Gan who Dr bius come brief&prepare me 4 bius) cold(HUKM air-con very low…I juz wear operation cloth..wear very few..huhu..then wait 1 hour lay at bed) nervous(becoz wait outside operation room) hungry(coz puasa since midnite,12am til 11am oli IN operation)….

During on the way IN…I repeat think I must ok..wake up..safe…keep think frenz..family face..

In the Operation room..wa..like seen in movie…that time there is no think, no scare…no shy..even I undergo left breast operation by male doctor…almost all men…haiz..that time juz hear Dr bius voice say “ breathe…see up…breathe..see up..repeat”…then can felt my half body been bius..no rasa..difficult breathe too….duno when I sleep..very fast..wake up…blur..blur..pain at left breast..then hear a nurse say “cik..pembedahan dah selesai..sekarang pindah ke wad rehat ya”…blur..blur..felt wan vomit…move myself(that time is 1.15pm)…wake up change cloth…then hav lunch…then felt headache..blur..next sleep again at rest place….til 4pm…chat with operation frenz..hehe later at 4.40pm my 2^nd sister came fetch me…

At home rest…been treat like queen…so touch so many ppl care me…my 1st sister buy food 4 me eat…my mum wash my hair..hehe..:)..but the not gd…almost food can not eat…juz can eat porridge…somemore fish porridge..i less eat fish…huhu can say dun like..hav to like aso…4^th day back UKM…lucky my 2^nd sister & her husband help me move all my stuff to room…That nite Shock…becoz..remove plaster at operation place….so terrible…see my operation place..still little bleeding…wa..lucky I no operate both breast…if not sure I weak totally…haha…

Tmrw (30 dec 08) start my study life back..after half year internship…face with blank brain…haha…no idea for final year project…still in honeymoon mood…hehe…

 Hope tmrw will make better me…^^